Day: February 23, 2018

Daddy always said
With a twinkle in his eyes
Daughter you came out stubborn
Doctors couldn’t make you cry.
Yes, you got mad
Your skin turned bright red
But you wouldn’t scream
And those doctors said
There must be something
Wrong with this child
But I knew that your heart
It was born pure wild
You learned how to run
Before you could crawl
Never let anyone close
Kept your back to the wall
Where you could dart
This way or that
Away from eyes upon you
Wherever they sat
You would get so angry
And just hold your breath
Till you collapsed on the floor
And we witnessed your death
I would scoop you up by your ankles,
Give you a spanking
Till you breathed again
And I was thanking
The good Lord above
For this wonderful blessing
Then off you’d go
And I’d revert to cursing
As your heart got bigger
So did your mind
The wanderlust took you
To all the places you could find
Full of adventure
With no sense of fear
Till the calls came
And I heard your tears
“I’m so sorry Daddy,
That I am gone
But I’m okay
Please carry on
It’s so big
This beautiful world
And no matter what
I’m still your little girl
Remember that I am
A spitting image of you
And no matter what Daddy,
I love you too.

RaenellDawn

I’ll open the door with a sentence
Before you ring the bell
Your lack of response says
More than words will ever tell.
You just stand there looking blindly
At me and then the floor
Then you turn slightly sideways
You don’t want to hear no more.
So the words will go unspoken
The feelings be suppressed
All my truths are too binding
And make you feel oppressed.
The depths at which I swim
You dare not even tread
You fight a bloody battle
But yet you fear my head.
When my words go unspoken
And to the corner I am cast
At any given moment
The chance could be your last.
I won’t stand indefinitely
In the doorway you see
If your eyes don’t look up
You can’t see me.
The silence will tell
What needs to be told
and the shadow you cast
Just lets in the cold.
Please keep on walking
Don’t hesitate
Either enter or leave
So I can close the gate.

RaenellDawn

Solitude
Feels good to me
I wear it well
My own company.
I’m fully present
Keenly aware
Of those that take up space
But aren’t really there.
Those that say
“You never call”
Are the same ones
That haven’t called at all.
And me, I won’t make
The first move each time
I’ll distance myself
Till I cross their mind.
Let them make the effort
To stay in touch
The burden for one
Is just too much.
I become quite comfortable
And it’s a welcome reprieve
The isolation, that surrounds me
When everyone leaves
For months and years
When they just go away
And you don’t even wonder
What happened that day
The last time you saw them
The last time you spoke
Would it have been different
If you had known?
I’ve become adept
At never saying goodbye
Letting people go
In the blink of an eye.
If leaving me
Is so easy to do
Why should I hurt
Over losing you?

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