I talk to her everyday. I pour out everything that’s been going through my head between the hours of waking and sleeping.
My words don’t require explanations, there are no rebuttals. She’s never said “that doesn’t make sense”, or “you shouldn’t feel like that”. I rely on her for validation.
She understands the darkness, the fear, the confusion, the humor, the love that I feel so deeply. I’m always safe with her. She has watched me give so much of myself away and then chastised me for doing so. She scolded me for dumb ideas, said “I told you so” a hundred times. She laughs at my fashion faux paux, reminds me to check the speedometer. She pushes me forward when I need it, holds me in place when I want to go. Lends a hand when I fall down, and holds both hands over my mouth when I want to speak without processing.
We don’t always see eye to eye. Sometimes we argue for days. But she’s there when I lay my head down and holding my coffee when I wake up.
Most will never know her, and that’s ok, she’s always right beside me leading the way.
The one that swore
“I’ll always have your back”
Always behind me
Is where my shadow is at.
RaenellDawn 11/27/2016
