The most loving embrace that I’ve ever known, is that of silence and solitude.
The way they, when coupled together, welcome me home.
The peaceful embrace that engulfs me, the moment the door closes behind me, saying
“ you are home…let your guard down, be at ease, you’re off duty…exhale.”
The comfort that is felt, in my own space, surrounded by my own things, everything exactly where I want it or put it. A familiarity that is, for me, empowering.
You see, I love doing my own thing. Exactly when and how I want to. No explanations. No compromises. No settling.
My most treasured possession…my time. I know the value of it. I understand that, for me, time alone is not only essential, but critical to my survival.
I am never whole or completely at ease with another’s presence. The space they are taking up feels like hands shoving me in directions I don’t want to go.
I feel censored, exhausted and trapped when confined to another’s company.
So please, don’t take it personal when I push away from you, it’s only personal for me.
