Category: Poems

Embrace the shifting
that your going through,
Open yourself up
To a brand new you
Spread your arms
Wide like wings
Lift your voice
And let it sing
Stomp your feet
Make some noise
Spin in circles
Find your joy
Ride your passion
On the wind
Marvel at the sand
Your toes sink in.
Raise your face
Up to the sun
Never forget
You’re complete as one.
Kick it up
Along the surf
Stand fierce and proud
And Own your turf.
RaenellDawn 02/03/2018

And those that thought they knew her
Remember the smile on her face
Her laughter in the air
They could never replace
The accidental counselor
Everyone talked to
Words of encouragement
Saying you’ll get through
They loved her kind heart
Her listening ear
They held on tight
With every tear.
Like a dry sponge
She absorbed their emotions
Knowing full well
They hadn’t the notion
That at the end of the day
Their torment was felt
Like it was her own
And on the ground she knelt
Pounding the floor
While screaming inside
Trying to release what
Was attempting to hide
Other people’s demons
Danced with her own
She must push them out
Before they make her their home.
So now she lays shattered
Exhaustion wins
This is what happens
When you let people in.
They take all of your good
Leaving behind their ghosts
Turning you into someone
That nobody knows
Because in the morning
With a new dawn
The heavy mask that is waiting
She’ll put back on.
Her shoulders squared
She would find a way
To be whomever
They needed today.
As the crowd sits in silence
The memories they’ll recall
From above she’ll be weeping
They didn’t know her at all.
It was a never ending battle
Inside of her head
With words fired on paper
And bleeding bright red.
Her good and her bad
Constantly at war
Until finally one
Couldn’t fight anymore.
Into the waves of the ocean
She let herself succumb
The tide pulling her down
She was now only one.
RaenellDawn 02/04/2018

Keep your distance
Don’t get too close
I’m just someone
You’ll never know
You might see layers
Every now and then
Though I speak my truths
I won’t let you in
I stay in my shelter
Guarded from pain
Though I might veer
I won’t leave my lane
On rare occasions
I might look out
Just to see if the world
Is still turning about.
Though I’ll stay right here
To my shell, I am bound
I have walked out there
But didn’t like what I found.
It’s toxic and repulsive
Morals are gone
There’s an ugliness to it
That I hide from.
Don’t ask for my secrets
You’ll receive half truths
Protecting my inner self
Is just what I do.
RaenellDawn 02/05/2018

I speak from my heart
I write from my soul
I dig in deeper
Than most people can go.
Darkness surrounds me
Though my light might shine
Pen and paper keep rhythm
In perfect time.
Most of my stories
Will end up just words
Surrounded by people
Yet nobody heard.
On rare occasions
When they are seen
People often comment
“You could of been writing about me”.
I provoke awareness
I make people think
But at the end of the day
It’s just a lot of spilled ink.

Rawni

There’s a clock on the wall
That’s never kept time
It ticks away every moment
But has never once chimed.
It faces the room
Where most living is done
Watching over those living here
All of us or just one.
It stopped the day
I walked through your door
The second hand repeating
The second before.
Have you ever wondered
What it’s trying to say
Are we going to fix it
Or leave it this way?
It represents our life
How suspended we are
After years together
We haven’t made it very far.
It doesn’t spring forward
Nor can it fall back
Just silently bears witness
To all that we lack.
I often sit here
At 2 am in the dark
Wondering if it’s waiting
For me to leave, to restart.
Though it’s time is frozen
Ours has moved on
And the clock on the wall shouts
We’ve wasted too much, can’t get back what is gone.

It’s the ones left unfinished,
I go back and read,
where the writing just stopped…
tears made the ink bleed.
I lost the rhythm,
or I ran out of time,
the words got jumbled
In my fragmented mind.
Do you know what this means
For someone like me?
Only a portion of that pain
Was ever set free.
The rest is trapped
Inside my soul
Buried in darkness
Becoming a demon, don’t you know.
That’s how it is
And I will not lie
Insurmountable anguish
Well, it never dies.
If you have to hold onto it,
If no one sets it free
It takes on a life of its own
Becoming another beast inside of me.
I know my demons well
They always carry me through
Pushing me back into the light
Saving me more, than people ever do.
Never ask me to shun them
They’re already buried alive
If you look closely enough
You’ll see they watch through my eyes.
RaenellDawn 10/01/2017

You feel it creeping in
Starts in the middle of your spine
Spreads throughout your bones
Still, you whisper you are fine
Your words go unspoken
Your lips do not speak
Just a half hearted smile
And truths that you keep
Buried in the corners
Of your ravaged heart
Your mind becomes twisted
And sets you apart
From the rest of crowd
In the room milling about
They’ve known you for years
But can’t figure you out
They say hello from a distance
Or as they pass by
Quickly stepping around you
And diverting their eyes.
You know their truths
The narcissistic egos
A glance in their direction
Leaves them feeling exposed.
You make them self conscious
And painfully aware
Their skin starts to crawl
From your deadpan stare.
They’re putting on a show
To convince others you see
Reputation is not character
For it lacks integrity.
RaenellDawn 12/09/2017

They pretend like they know you
But ain’t got a clue
You have 15 demons
Livin inside of you
Your mine is a cavern
And totally twisted
You walk like your tough
Shoulders back, double fisted
The monkey that you carry
Around on your back
Won’t protect your ass
From any attack
All the steel you’ve stolen
Down in your pocket
Your momma’s face frowns
From inside that gold locket
You’re walking an alley
She couldn’t protect you from
Those drugs that you’re selling
You’ll be on the run
With nowhere to hide
You won’t know friend from foe
Just out on those streets
With nowhere to go.
And the Blue, they will chase you
Till you run out of air
For the lives that you murdered
You’ll see the chair.
Those families will come
To bare witness you see
Full extent of the law
What your punishment will be.
Those iron bars slam
Now you repent while you wait
You beg God for forgiveness
To access the Pearly Gate.
RaenellDawn
01/23/2018

Frantic penmanship
Scars the page
Emotions erupting
Love, pain and rage.
I pour it all out
Colors of blue, red and black
Every single word
That I’ve held back.
Your truths, jotted down
To create a book
Seeing what you refuse to
See when you look.
Your self admiration
You see in the mirror
Is not who you are
When people get nearer.
You’re an inflated ego
With no substance below
But your character will follow
Wherever you go.
When you get comfortable
And your mask falls away
“You’re not what they thought”
is all they will say.
One day I pray
Your reflection will speak
Showing the coward
The man so weak.
The mind convoluted
The narcissist inside
The broken mask
You’ll have nowhere to hide.
For when your truths
Are acknowledged by you
And you see yourself
The way I do
You’ll call my name
Full of remorse
And I’ll put it all down
On paper of course.
RaenellDawn 01/27/2018

I don’t know when
We were introduced
you became so vital
…and I couldn’t refuse
How you attached yourself
To my open veins
And heard every word
At 2 a.m.
Your colors brought sunshine
And darkness too
You held the torch
So I could find my way through
The haunted rooms
That exist inside me
You patiently waited
Until I could see
That I had the power
And I could control
A few simple strokes
And the world would know
That I complete me
I’m my own best friend
And you are my shadow
This paper and pen.
You’re my constant
That chose to stay
When the rest of the world
went away.
You gave me comfort
Every night till dawn
Bringing the paper to life
That we write upon.
A whisper in my ear
Always there when I looked
Together, you and I
Wrote another book.
RaenellDawn 02/06/2018