Daddy did you know
That I’ve been losing my religion?
I’ve been screaming out to GOD
But he doesn’t seem to listen.
I’ve been shaking my fist
And pounding the floor
Not understanding what
He’s forsaken me for.
What grave sin have I committed
In this life that I live
That his grace and mercy are denied me
And he cannot forgive?
I’ve been saying that “I’m tired”
For so long, it’s unheard
A whispered cry for HELP
Was just another word.
Spoken in desperation
Still, they did not see
I was no longer capable
Of saving I or me.
The struggle was too great
Went on for far too long
I was just a shadow in their life
In a world where I never belonged.
Trials and tribulations
Beat the hope out of me
Till I forgot how to pray
Till I no longer believe
That God is just
Or God is love
Or that he’s watching
From up above
Perhaps my words
Are blasphemy
Look in His book of names
My name you will not see.
He crossed mine out
Why, I don’t know
But I’ve gone as far
As I can possibly go.
At my memorial
Don’t you dare cry
When I begged for help
All turned a blind eye.
While on your knees
In whispered prayer
Try asking God
Why He didn’t care?
Shake your fists
At him in rage
Had he shown but some grace
I could’ve been saved.
